Maybe, just maybe.

Life has been beyond amazing lately. I don't know if it's all the travel or being surrounded by family or just the peace that overcomes when times are really really good. Regardless, the struggle isn't real right now.

It's funny how that works though. How things can be really tough one minute and really good another. How bad things come in droves but when good finds you it really, really finds you.

I don't feel like I have a lot to blog about lately. I don't feel like I have anything worth sharing. And then I remember this space and how it's for me to look back on in later days and remember -- the good, the bad, and even the ugly.

I've been trying really hard lately to become a nicer person. It's a hard thing, though, to smile in the face of your enemies, to act cordial around those who secretly, or not so secretly, leave a bad taste in your mouth. It's becoming easier though, as the days go by, to just give it all to God. To let him take control of every situation, the good, the bad, and yes, the ugly too.

And I'm also trying to improve my health, which never seems to go the way I want it to. I can't stick to a diet, or healthy eating. Don't get me wrong, it's not because I don't like the food or the way it makes me feel after I exercise, it's just that I like caffeine and chocolate more. And those are hard things to give up. Terribly hard, and if you say they're not, well, I just don't know that we could be friends. But then I think about the long run of life and how many it's okay to endulge a little every now and then. To be young and careless and free, even though I'm not so young anymore.

And how maybe reading all these articles about how being a twenty something is the prime of your life and it's time to make mistakes and do this and do that to fall in love and make the money, but money's not that important, and how your small space can be the cutest ever isn't the best thing. Because comparing my life to other's highlight reels isn't for the positive.

And maybe, just maybe, my life isn't supposed to be this cookie cutter life and I'm not supposed to have or be all these things the world is telling me to be, but instead being me is better. Being clumsy, and silly and quiet when I'm tired, and full of opinions is okay.
Because at the end of the day, this is my life and me and I think it's time I really start shaping this world for myself.